Tit for Tat (and Tats for Tit)

So I took a little break from blogging and am now ready to jump back in to it.  I feel like I haven't had much to write about and I've been feeling so good and "normal" that blogging about cancer hasn't really been top on my priority list.  The past month or so I've been going to physical therapy to regain the range of motion in my arms and shoulders.  I also went to the plastic surgeon weekly for fills in my expanders.  I had to do those things before radiation began because my Rad Onc said not to do physical therapy during.  Also, I can't be expanded during or after radiation because the skin gets very tough and non-stretchable.

Mainly I'm blogging again because of the hilarious title I came up with.  You all know that I'm not one to get tatoos, really but cancer does something to you.  It changes you.  I decided to live a little and get inked.  I actually have 4 new tatoos.  Now don't get too excited, I didn't go overboard.  I didn't get a cool saying written in Japanese, or a snake around my bicep or even a Precious Moments character.  No, I went with 4 small black dots.

My Radiation Oncologist made me do it.  They are to help line up the lasers so they can find the right place to hit me with the radiation.  Wah wah wah.  Yes, I started radiation yesterday.  I'm a little nervous about what is going to happen to my skin.  Picture the worst sunburn you've ever had.  Then add a grayish black color to it.  Then peel back some of the skin.  Then add some huge cracks in the skin.  Then burn the other side of the body because the sun actually went all the way through the body and burned the other side.  That's what I'm scared of.  But they say that not everyone's body reacts the same way.  So maybe I'll be one of the lucky ones who escapes w/out too much damage.

Last Wednesday, at my YSC support group, I was able to peek at some of the other girls' skin and pictures of what happened to their skin during radiation.  That's why I'm so scared.  The other side effect is fatigue.  Supposedly, radiation makes you really really tired.  But that's definitely manageable.

Speaking of fatigue, I'm so tired right now.  I'm going to bed.  Goodnight!