The good, the bad, and the pink warriors

The past few days have been, well, a ROLLERCOASTER!!  Breast cancer has changed my life and there's no turning back.  I'll get the yucky stuff out of the way now so I can focus on the amazing blessings.  Yesterday we got a call from the surgeon with some bad news:  One of the lymph nodes they took out during the surgery had 4mm of cancer in it.  This means the cancer is on the move.  The thing that scares us the most is that they found some "spots of interest" on my spine a few days ago on the PET scan.  These spots didn't light up like cancer normally does, and hopefully are just calcium deposits, but I am going in for a bone scan on Monday just to be sure.  And yes, since you're asking, I WILL be radioactive for another day.  I can't wait to see what super power I get this time!  My bone scan was scheduled for Thursday, but with the news of cancer in the node, my surgeon pulled whatever strings he needed to in order to get me checked out sooner.  Trevor and I had a really hard night last night, worrying about "what ifs".  We are more at peace now but are still just anxious to get the results of the bone scan and see what the reality is that we face. 

On a way brighter note, an amazing group of friends threw a HUGE garage sale yesterday and today.  Donations of items and cash seemed to pour in from all over the community.  It was amazing the 2 times I dropped by to see the sea of pink as they worked so hard to raise money for me.  They all wore pink shirts that said "Lauren's Warriors" on them and they sold other pink shirts that said "SOS Saving our Sisters" as part of the fundraiser.  Can you imagine the love that I felt?  I am so blessed.  I am starting to see what the words Relief Society actually mean.  It's not just the fundraising, but the meals, and the cleaning of my house, and the caring for my kids, and the general outpouring of love we've recieved already.  Thank you to all of my sweet friends and family who are working so hard to make this trial easier for me and my family.  And if you're feeling left out, and want to be involved, round 2 of the garage sale commences NEXT weekend in Everett at Ryan and Heather Hammond's home. 

As you've probably noticed, I'm feeling a little more subdued as I write this than I have been in the past.  I feel like my feet have been knocked out from under me.  But like Trevor told me this morning, "We're gonna kick cancer's ass".  No doubt about it. 'scuze my french.